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After dropping off M at school one day, K and I decided to do a Michael’s run.  I had a couple of items I needed to buy for an order and the morning was the perfect time to do so.

K was not up to it at all.  She wanted out of the shopping cart.  She wanted to walk around on her own.

I had to shop.  I had to listen to the whining that turned into crying, that almost turned into screaming.

Thank God for the woman that was in line before me.  Having been through this phase in motherhood, she understood that K was probably not going to last much longer and let me make my purchase before her.

By the time, we were done and on our way out of the store, K was practically in tears.  The screaming hadn’t started yet.  It was more her ‘pity cry’ than her “i’m mad, get me out of here NOW” cry.

I took her out of the shopping cart, put the items into the car, and right as I was going to put her into the carseat, she holds me tighter.

She obviously didn’t want to get strapped down into another seat again.

With time to kill, I let her hold me.  I held her back, I squeezed her tight.  I comforted her.

We stood in the parking lot, holding each other and I was swaying back and forth.  We were dancing in the parking lot.

It was all she needed.

It was a pretty hectic morning.  It had been a pretty hectic few days.  All she wanted was to slow down and take a break.

She just wanted hugs.  She just wanted comfort.

We danced in the parking lot for about 10-15 minutes.  Eventually her hold on my relaxed.  We played a bit with her in my arms.  We laughed.  I talked, she babbled.

When it came time to finally put her back into the carseat, she was fine.  She let me strap her in.  She didn’t fuss.  She didn’t complain.  Everything was pleasant again.

In the middle of all the chaos that is our day to day lives, it’s hard to remember to just slow down and take a break.

Thanks, K.  Lesson learned.

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Since August 2015:

  • M started 4yo preschool 3 days a week.
  • I became the classroom’s room mother.
  • M turned 4yo.
  • K walked at 9mo.
  • K turned 1yo.
  • Hubby got a promotion and a raise.
  • We bought an awesome new dining table and started having more family dinners. (Long overdue, I know..)
  • We’ve been to Legoland at least once a month, sometimes more.
  • I started a food blog (Joe, Party of 4)
  • M obsessed over Shopkins
  • M got over the Shopkins obsession.
  • M currently obsesses over Pokemon (specifically, Pikachu)
  • I’ve become obsessed with memory keeping
  • I’ve attempted to do some bible journaling
  • We dressed up as The Simpsons for Halloween
  • We bought a selfie stick
  • We did Elf on the Shelf for the first time
  • We did an Advent calendar for the first time
  • I started selling ribbon clips in my Etsy store, CutieQ Cards n Crafts.
  • This banner became a best seller, selling at least once a month!
  • M started taking a dance class
  • M had a daddy/daughter date watching Frozen on Ice
  • M and I became obsessed with Lush
  • Snapchat became our favorite phone app
  • We’ve been living with my in-laws for the past month and a half while our house gets some work done.

 

According to the WordPress dashboard, it’s been six months since my last blog post.  I tried so hard to keep a good blog writing schedule.  I tried so hard to keep the blog going, but I just couldn’t.

Honestly, sleep was more important.  I couldn’t find time during the day to add to the blog, so I wanted to write when the girls went to bed.  But this mama was tired, all the time.  So, I chose sleep.

Six months later, I’m glad I did.  Life has gotten a little bit more calm.  We’ve developed a groove.  And I’m ok with sleeping late now that the kids go to bed earlier.

Six months later, I feel like I’ve got a better control over life.  Let me rephrase that.  Six months later, I feel like I’ve got a better control over life MOST OF THE TIME.  There are still moments where life just feels completely overwhelming and I use all of my energy just trying to keep my head above water.  But doesn’t everyone feel that way?

Six months later, I feel like I’m just barely getting this ‘stay at home mom’ life down.  Just barely.

A lot has changed in six months, but I’m glad to say that a lot of it has been for the better…

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During those quiet night time feedings, my mind likes to wander.  Sometimes it thinks of the strangest things, I think it’s because I’m half-asleep and maybe half-dreaming.  Other times, there are tons of different questions I think about..

  • When did M become a kid?
  • How did 7 weeks since I gave birth go by so fast?
  • Am I ever going to craft again?
  • How do I start my own craft-based business?
  • What can I create that will make people want to buy them?
  • Am I ever going to lose this baby weight?
  • Am I ever going to be able to hit 10,000 steps a day?
  • How did I become a mother of two awesome little girls?
  • How did I become a mother?!?!

These, and so many more, questions just run through my mind… I don’t know if I will ever find the answers.

At least these questions help me create personal goals to find the answers..

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Things have been a bit chaotic in the household lately.

M caught some sort of bug.  Maybe it was a bug, maybe it was all the smoke from the fires, see here.  What ever it was left her all phlegmy and coughing.  It triggered asthma and I took her into the doctor on Monday.  Sure enough, asthma.  She was put on her breathing treatments for most of Monday and I was on watch for Tuesday.  Luckily, all the breathing treatments she did Monday were enough to make her better on Tuesday.

She still has a little bit of a productive cough, but it happens rarely now and I’m sure it’s on it’s way out.

I had a short work week of just Wednesday and Thursday, but even those two short days were full of stuff.

Today, I have the day off.

I know the blog posts have been a little sparse this month, but I’m trying my best.

It’s life.. right?

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I have to admit, there’s a lot going on right now..

Work is just taking all my time away during the day.  Then home life is just as hectic.

On top of trying to keep from drowning in laundry, there’s a little person I have to make sure doesn’t bonk her head on any and every hard surface there is in our apartment.  On top of that, I have to make sure she eats.  On top of that, I have to make sure the Hubby eats.  On top of that, we’ve been doing a massive reorganization of the apartment.  On top of that, I’ve got a craft blog to keep up.  On top of that, I’ve got several projects for a friend’s wedding I need to finish.

Isn’t life great?!

I know when things get hectic like this, something has to give.  But what?

With all that’s going on, I feel like the blog is suffering.  The stories are few.  I’m just trying to keep my head above water. 

I told myself that when I started this blog I wouldn’t fill it with useless complaints.  I told myself I wouldn’t make this blog all “woe is me” and “my life sucks,” because I know very well that it doesn’t.  We just go through ups and downs.  We just occasionally find ourselves in a funk, but what’s so great about it is that it’s only temporary. 

Well, I’m definitely going through a funk right now.  I’m desperate for a career change.  I seriously can’t see myself doing this for the rest of my life anymore.  Maybe it’s the burn out, maybe it’s a real longing for change.  I don’t know.  All I know is, I’m not 100% happy with where my career is right now. 

But I’ll give it time.

It’s just a funk.

I’m working on pushing my way out of it.  Maybe that’s why I’ve been so desperate to get this apartment reorganization done.  Making change that will actually get accomplished will make me feel so productive.  I need to know I can make a change happen, even if its as simple as an apartment reorganization.

If you see the blog suffer a bit, let me know.  If you find that the posts are starting to become more pessimistic, let me know. 

If there is anything you ever wish to have me discuss, review, or try… let me know.

I promise to keep my complaining to a minimum..

I’ve been MIA lately on the blog posts..

Everything is ok.. I’ve just been lazy..

After M got sick and I took a break in the posting, I felt (and probably still feel) like I’ve lost a little bit of the momentum…

It happens..

I plan on getting back into full swing on July 1st. 

Part of it is that I’m feeling like I”m running out of things to say.. the stories all feel the same.. M said this.. M did that..

But after some thinking, I feel that those stories are what make this blog.. this is my life.. it started as a single 20-something, to a married 30-something working mom trying to just make her way through life and raise a kid..

So.. I’ve been taking the time to list down stories and topics so once the new month hits, I can be up and running..

Never fret, dear readers.. I’m still here.. I appreciate your patience while I struggle to get back in the game of daily blog posts..

I think some of it was once I changed to a Mon-Fri format, it also halted the momentum a bit..

So.. I’m going to try to go back to the daily thing.. seven days a week of new blog posts.. starting July 1st..

Yay!

It’s the little victories in life that make it worth living..

– Winning at that Mahjong Tile matching game..
– Eating muffin tops
– Laughing at finding stickers in wierd places
– Eating anything red velvet
– Getting home two minutes before your usual time
– Grabbing your cup of coffee and realizing there’s still some left (a personal fave!)
– Teaching your toddler something one day and realizing she remembers it the next
– Making enough dinner for tonight and some for next days lunch.. and no leftovers after that!
– Learning the rap break in the  “Bananas” song from The Fresh Beat Band
– Knowing you can sing every song your daughter requests
– Being on the receiving end of a kiss and hug from your toddler.. the best victory ever!

What are your little victories in life?

Sometimes, I just watch M play.

I watch her laugh.  I listen to her talk.  I watch her walk around.  I watch her move.

I love her.

Time goes by so fast.  Watching her be this little person, while thinking about what my life was like one year ago, two years ago, even three years ago!

I never thought it would be like this..

Just last year, she was about 5 months old.  I just started back at work from my maternity leave.  She was all about trying to crawl.. I was all about losing the baby weight, balancing life between work and home, trying to learn a new normal..

Two years ago, I was battling morning sickness.  I was amazed at how much impact the little person in me was already making in my life.  Parenthood was all just speculations and assumptions.  We talked and talked and planned about how our life would be once she came into this world.  We were also in and out of emergency rooms because we didn’t know what to do about every little feeling..

Three years ago, Hubby just became my fiance.  We were all about the wedding planning..

What’s next year going to be like?

Will I be pregnant with our second?

Will I be at home? 

Will I be working? 

Will we be in our apartment? 

Will we be in a house? 

What sort of antics will a 2 1/2 year old M get into?

What sort of stories will I have about my life then?

Only God knows.. and I can’t wait til I find out!

Yesterday.. (click here).. I complained.. and complained.. and complained..

Today.. it’s time to do something about it.. I have to.. I can’t spend the rest of my life complaining about what could be done.. and just not do it.. right?

Well.. ok.. here we go..

I’m going to start taking more control of my life.. start making myself accountable for things that I have been too lazy to do.. I’ll put myself on a cleaning schedule..

So far.. I designated Wednesdays as my laundry days.. and possibly Mondays or Thursdays to be my room cleaning days.. I refuse to fall behind on that.. and  I have to be mature enough to take care of it.. no matter how tired I get..

I’m not a kid anymore..  No one is going to do it for me.. (unless I pay them.. hahaha!)

Now that I zero’d out my credit cards.. I will make sure to keep them under control.. and try to limit my monthly card spending to $250-300 a month..

I’ve got student loans coming up next year.. I want to be financially prepared for all of that..

I started last year with the same outlook.. overhauling my life.. trying to be more responsible and more mature.. but for some reason my laziness got the best of me..

I really have to stop letting that happen..

I’m going to take it one week at a time.. and I know there are weeks where I will not live up to the expectations I put myself in.. but that can’t mean I give up.. I have to pick myself up where I left off and keep at it..

I think I can do it.. I hope I can..


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