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Last week, I was bombarded with a lot of negativity. 

Some person was trying twist around his bad behavior to make it look like I was the culprit.

No, this has nothing to do with my boyfriend.  He has been lovingly, supportive during this frustrating and trying time. 

I have decided to erase all that negativity from my life, but that negative energy is deeply rooted in something I LOVE to do.. sing.

I have decided that it will NOT stop me from what I love to do.. especially where I do it.

I sing because it makes me happy.  I sing because I serve the Lord.  I sing because that’s my outlet of creative release.  I sing and there is no one that can stop me from doing what I love.

In the past, I have been known to walk away from things when one person bothers me about it.. things that I have loved for so long.. I sacrificed just to stay away from the one person that causes me grief.

Not anymore.

I am going to learn to not let that stand in the way of something I believe in deeply.  One person versus touching the lives of so many with the gift of song..

That won’t stand in the way.. not anymore.

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I have been having the weirdest dreams lately.

For some reason, they have been involving the people in the Church choir that I sing with.. hahah..

Parties.. singing events.. and just the weird things that are happening in them..

Like last night’s dream.. I had to go to the bathroom.. and one of the girls just walks in and hands me an invitiation to her engagement party.  Uh..  I was in the bathroom..

Suddenly.. the bathroom had a bedroom right next to it.. rather.. the bedroom conveniently had a toilet next to the bed.. so when I was done using the bathroom.. she lies on the bed and takes a nap!

Weird!

Then I try to go down stairs.. back down to the Church.. and there’s a little wasp at the top of the stairs.. pacing back and forth on a table.. and for some reason.. I can’t get past it.. it was like guarding the stairs so I couldn’t go down there and sing with the rest of the choir..

Wierd.. wierd dreams..

I won’t even begin to try and interpret that.. I might find out that I’m psycho or something.. hahah!

There are times in our lives that prayer and our faith in God are the only things that can keep us going..

I believe that all that I have achieved would not be possible if I didn’t trust in the Lord and pray for the success and guidance I have gotten from Him. 

There have been many times in my life that I have wondered why I was put here and what my purpose is.. and why I have been brought in the directions that I have been brought to..

There are many instances where I’ve questioned why I had to go through a certain ordeal.. or why I don’t have what others have.. or why other people seem to have the life that I’ve always wanted..

Why do they get to live the way I’ve wanted to live.. and they don’t go to Church ever week.. they don’t practice a religion.. they don’t have a strong faith in God.. why do they get the life that I want?

How is that even fair?

I’ve found myself questioning God over and over again about that..

But what I WANT.. may not necessarily be what I NEED.. what I want may be detrimental to my life.. or may steer me in the wrong direction in the long run.. in any case.. He knows what’s best.. even if it’s something I didn’t want.. He knows what I need..

I’m being looked out for.. and that’s the consolation I need to know that I am being taken care of.. that I am loved and that I am never going to be given something that I can’t handle..

So.. take some time out of your day.. thank God for all that He has given you.. a simple prayer of thanks.. because He really is just a prayer away..


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