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Monday was a rough morning for me, “working mom” me.

It was bad.  Bad, like, “crying in the car on the way to work” bad.

I guess it started last week.  The past few mornings have been absolutely freezing.  It started off feeling terrible because I had to make Little M go through those freezing cold mornings to go to Grandma & Grandpas house to be watched while Hubby and I go to work.

She doesn’t need to go through that.  She needs to be in her nice warm bed, snuggling up next to her mommy.. me.

THEN, she spent the entire weekend at my hip.  Literally.  I couldn’t even leave her sight.  I’d go to the restroom, two seconds after I disappear, I hear “Mimi! Mimi!” and the pitter-patter of her little feet running towards whatever room she thinks I’m in. 

So, Monday morning, I’m getting ready to go to work and she wakes up crying for me.  I carry her, comfort her, put her back to sleep.  I try to lay her back on the bed and she holds me tighter and starts to cry. 

“Mimi!  Go milk!”

She wanted milk, so Hubby gave her some and I thought all was good.

I walk by her again and she sees me.  The waterworks start up again and she’s in my arms again.

I hold her so close and she finally calms down. 

I tell her I had to go and that she had to go to Daddy.  She holds me tighter again and starts to cry.

Sigh.. that’s when I couldn’t hold it in anymore and I start to cry!

It really isn’t fair that she has to go through this and I feel absolutely terrible and so so so so so guilty.

You can tell me that so many mothers go through this everyday, but right now, it just doesn’t help. 

I would LOVE to be a stay at home mother.  That’s the dream.

You can’t tell me that I’d be bored at home.  You can’t tell me that being at home would drive me nuts.  I don’t think I’d get bored.  I don’t think I would be drive nuts.  I think I would absolutely enjoy it.  I’d rather have the stresses of what to cook for dinner, or how many loads of laundry I have to do, or making sure M stays out of trouble.. I’d rather have all that than having to have her go out in the cold of an early morning, or having her cry for me when she wakes up and I’m not there..

It’s just so sad. 

I hope she understands all that I do for her when she gets older.. I just wish it didn’t make me feel so guilty..

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Today marks the second full week of work of the new year.  It’s the second full week of work after we had two weeks of four day weekends.

Man, I’m ready for the next holiday weekend.

I’m burnt out.  I know I’ve said this before, but I feel that there really is more to life than this.

Work, home, work, home, CRAFT, home, work, home…

When’s the next three-day weekend?  I’m sooo ready for it!

I’m a lab-geek by profession.  I like lab work.  I think it’s fun..

But sometimes, I feel like I’m outgrowing the lab work. 

Sometimes I wish I would move on from the lab onto more “desk oriented” jobs..

It just feels like it’s the natural progression of things..

Now the dream would actually be for me to quit and be a SAHM.. but that’s not the reality..

So I have to think realistically..

I’d like to eventually see myself move on from the lab.. do more non-lab type work now.. then maybe be able to work from home a day or two a week..

I just can’t see myself in the lab forever.. I feel like I need to move on.. even if it’s in the same company..

If I can’t stay home, then I’d like to see my career grow.. even just a little bit..

So it’s the time of year when a majority of the people at work use up what ever is left of their vacation time…

I, on the other hand, am at work.

Because I was on maternity leave for all of January, I didn’t accrue any vacation time for that month.

Then, with sick baby time off, small vacation time off, M’s well-baby check ups… I used up all the time that I had for this year.

This means, for the rest of the year (two weeks or so..) I have no more personal time off days or vacation days..

All I have to look forward to are the Christmas holidays and the New Years holidays..

Last year, I was right in the middle of my maternity leave.. so it was nice to have this time of the year off..

The year before that, I used up all my time due to the wedding and our honeymoon.  Therefore, I was working at this time of the year while everyone else was on vacation..

Next year, I hope to plan things a little more differently.

I’m hoping that I can save enough time off that I can take a few days of vacation during this time of the year..

Or.. I can dream that by this time next year, I’ll be a stay at home mom.. a mommy can only dream…

If you’re friends of mine of Facebook, you will notice that I occasionally update my status with various business ventures I think I can partake in.. It’s a brainstorming process..

I may, or may not, be making some serious headway.. it’s all a matter of opinion..

1.  Professional Pinterest Analyst:  I will personally go through each and every DIY&Craft categorized pins and check for reproducibility and ease of process.  I can get paid per project. 

2.  Professional Translator:  I love watching The Filipino Channel (TFC), but my hubby doesn’t always understand what’s going on.. so I usually spend most of my time translating the Tagalog for him.. It’s never a literal translation, just a summary of the action and dialogue.. I’d love for someone to pay me to watch TFC with them!

3.  Professional Blogger:   I’d love to be paid for writing this blog.. even better if they paid me per word!  Hahahaha!

I think I’m really onto something here…

🙂

So.. I have a new job.. newer than the new job that I started in September..

Without getting into it too much.. let’s just say that there were things that I didn’t expect when taking that job.. and it didn’t sit well with me.. so I made the executive decision to just quit.. hands clean.. and never look back..

That brings me to this new job.. I work as the Quality Assurance Tech for a pet food company.. and I’ve been there for a week..

It’s.. interesting..interesting good and interesting bad.. let me explain:

Interesting good
I’m doing quality control and assurance on batches and batches of pet food.  It’s overwhelming to think that I am partially responsible for some of the petfood you are all buying your dogs.. and cats.. it’s amazing to think that I have to check it to make sure that it’s suitable to sell.. it’s a learning experience.. and smells a lot better than the vet lab I used to work for..

Interesting bad
It’s a mix of manual labor.. and laboratory work.  Since I’m working in a huge manufacturing plant.. I have to have the hard hat.. steel toed shoes.. ear plugs.. eye protection.. the works.  I’ll be getting a uniform as soon as they give me one.. so I come home sometimes dusty and smelling like dog food.. My hair is always flat because of the hard hat.. I can no longer have manicures.. and I can’t wear my ring.. so that means that if Joe ever pops the question.. I won’t be able to flash my fancy bling around at work.. haha..

Today was interesting.. I was learning how to test finished product and I didn’t realize that it meant I had to pull random bags from the assembly line.. well.. today.. the bags were 52lbs!

52lbs!

On a good day.. I weight between 120-125lbs.. that bag is a little less than half of what I weigh!!  And they expect me to eventually be able to pick that up?!

Insane!

That is pretty much the worse part of my day.. the heavy lifting..

I’m scared I’ll get man-hands.. eek!

Thoughts?

So.. the month of November is coming and going so fast..

I know I haven’t been around much to blog.. but there has been a lot to blog about..

To summarize.. we all know I started a job in September.. I left the job in October.. and am now waiting for the start date to a new job in November..

It’s actually a great testament to my trust in God.. and how I know He’s never given me anything I can’t handle.

I’ll expand more on the next few blog entries.. I feel that I should take my time and really explain what had been going on much more thoroughly than just one simple blog entry..

I’m looking forward to writing it all.. and I promise it won’t be a waste of time..


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